Six years ago I was a poor college student working at a local hotel. It was neither fancy, nor seedy. One of those that have kitchens in them and discounted rates for long-term stays. It was an easy job and I didn't do much. I worked the 3-11pm shift. That meant people new to town … Continue reading Diary 15 – Suicide.
I mentioned before that I was very interested in starting therapy due to some spiraling anxiety issues and my desire to get a dog (ESA letter ftw). I finally took the plunge and could not be happier. She's super nice, laid back, and a bit sarcastic like myself. She's helping me to find my triggers … Continue reading Diary 14 – Therapy and Poetry.
Hey all. ~crickets chirp throughout the empty room~ I have decided to probably not get braces. First - because lol $5000 (almost 3.5 lakh if you're tuning in from India). Second - because they're estimating 1.5 to 2 years which is a pretty long time. I know that they say not to avoid doing something … Continue reading Diary 13 – Learning Tamil.
I've been wanting to fix my teeth for about 5 years. I have minor crowding on the top and still relatively mild crowding on the bottom. A lot of people don't notice until I complain about it or make a weird face that reveals their full crooked selves, but it bothers me. It wasn't terrible … Continue reading Diary 12 – Orthodontic Consultation.
March 15 - the day I set foot back onto American soil. Today marks exactly two months since getting back. Two months since my priorities took a major shift. Two months that have both flown by and somehow also crept by simultaneously. Last year I spent the better part of it getting everything together. Saving, working … Continue reading Diary 11 – I’ve Been Home for Two Months.
Some people who know me know that I have a twinge of anxiety. This is exhibited by my persistent nail biting, obsessive cleaning, and extremely detailed day planners to keep my thoughts organized. Over the past couple of years it has been getting worse, and after this most recent trip it has peaked a bit. … Continue reading Diary 10 – I Had My First Anxiety Attack.
As many of you know, I signed a new lease about 2.5 weeks ago (huzzah). In that time, I have been working to make it as homey as possible. I've been looking at furniture, color schemes, and even artwork to adorn my bare walls. I've never really taken the time to decorate my apartments since … Continue reading Diary 9 – Buying a Couch and Paul McCartney Tickets.
Aloha, my dearest friends. It has been one week since I got the keys to my apartment. I have completely moved in, unpacked, and everything is going quite well. I was even able to resume my attempt in cooking. If you try to make anything that I share, I'd love to hear from you! Some … Continue reading Diary 8 – Mischief Managed.
To anyone that recognized the Radiohead reference, I love you. Last week my anxiety hit an all time high. I honestly don't think I've ever been so stressed out about everything, but things seem to have turned around. Last Friday I was approved for an apartment that is in the same building as my last … Continue reading Diary 7 – Jigsaw Falling into Place.
It's been nearly a month now since I got back. Life is fading back into normalcy. Slowly but surely. With each day it feels more and more like I never left. But my anxiety is ever increasing. The new job I started that I'd expressed concern over has actually turned around quite drastically. I was … Continue reading Diary 6 – Hitting a Wall.